“Your antagonist is fear,” she said.
She is one of the insightful people in my writing critique group of seven people, all bound to help give birth to our respective books.
For my submission last week, I turned in some preliminary writing that was more brainstorming and plotting than actual prose. I hoped for encouragement.
“And this,” she said, holding up my eight sheets of ideas, “looks like fear.”
I was shocked. This was not at all the kind of feedback I was expecting.
She looked me in the eye and said, “You just need to write. Stop thinking and start getting the words on the paper.”
I left the meeting feeling hurt, called out, and pissed off. I cried in the car ride home.
But after a few days of thinking, I realized she’s right.
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Though I hardly ever listen to the radio, I turned it on yesterday and Sara Bareilles’ song Brave was on. Have you heard it? It’s amazing.
Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave . . .
And since your history of silence
Won’t do you any good,
Did you think it would?
Let your words be anything but empty
Why don’t you tell them the truth?
Okay, Universe! I get it!
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Reading about someone’s writing process can be as fun as watching them gaze at their own navel. I won’t belabor my point, but I will say this: Telling the truth is HARD. No less than three people have asked me in the past week, how do you do it? How can you write about real people you know? Don’t you worry?
I worry about making my partner look like a schmuck (which she most certainly isn’t). I worry that “Meg” will never speak to me again. My mom and aunt read this blog, as do some of my clients, my boss, and many friends—both from the Camino and at home. I worry about what they will think.
Despite the pressure I feel to say everything nicely and keep topics unoffensive, I have to be brave. I have to fight my lifelong urge to be tactful. I have to just tell it like it is.
Here’s why: I’ve met too many pilgrims who went into their journey hoping to be changed by it, and did not know how to sort out the experience afterward. Telling the truth is a gift to myself and—hopefully—to anyone who struggles after their Camino.
I’m taking a week to work on my writing and may not update the blog for a bit. I’ll be back with more tales that aspire to inspire.
It’s not ALL hard or scary, though!
In the last week, I’ve taken three different hikes with wonderful people. Getting outdoors is awesome nourishment for the heart and soul.
The first hike was a fourteen-miler on Eagle Creek with new Camino friends—including one of my favorite bloggers, Elissa Green from sometimesshetravels.com.
I loved this photo Elissa took of my favorite hiking shoes (Brooks Cascadias) and a Checker Lily.
Everyone talks about these cool falls with the tunnel carved into rock behind them. Elissa is pointing to me and Laura. (Don’t look at this one, Mom!)
Then! Mary and I took a hike on Saturday in the Opal Creek area on a gorgeous day and saw tons of wildflowers. At one point we could hear the rushing sounds of three separate waterfalls. Amazing!
I counted—that’s about 23 miles in one week. Yay!
Let’s get out there be brave together!